The destructive nature of cancer

if you have read or study about cachexia, which is a wasting condition usually associated with end stage cancer. you would probably know that patients' metabolism is altered which results in severe weight loss, muscle atrophy, fatique and extreme weakness. fats and protein are breakdown rapidly and left only the bones. i have been seeing pictures of such in my notes while studying for the exam of clinical biochem. however, today i have seen a real cachexia patient lying on the bed panting for her last breath.

she is someone who used to dote on me and that was long long ago in my primary school days. as i grew older i realised that she is not as good as i thought. actions have proved me right such as bullying my nanny, stealing things that does not belong to her and sprouting nonsense which triggers dispute and others which can take days to list. * i 'm not exaggerating !

this is my first time i visit her after knowing about her condition seven months ago and it's most likely the last time i see her alive. i touched her forehead and stroked her bony arms and within me i was saying a little prayer hoping she could leave in peace. the best i can do is to pray for her painless death.

amen....