i feel so lousy all the while especially tonight. too lousy to be afraid of making mistakes and probably would spend a ridiculous amount of time agonising over a particular decision coz i just don't want to make a mistake. perhaps i should learn to make occassional mistake and stop adding pressure on myself thinking what if i make a big mistake, for i had made several big ones in my life. so what am i worrying? and if it does end up being a mistake of catastrophic proportions, then i can chalk it up as another lesson learned.

aiya just being ironic again... pulling my hair Grr....!